strating now i'm.......

It's been.....

Well, too long. Since my last post there was more drama with the exfriend via his friends. Idunno how she got my number but I had to put an end to that also. I've began posting on the phenominal TUMBLR! You can find me here, and my joint tumblr here.

I've got a new job in the city which has drasticly cut down the time I've had to do much of anything else! Not cool, but I'm making the doughnuts as my cousin would say. I also took my second Printmaking course at Tyler, and had a great gallery showing at the end.

I went to bamboozle, had a gret/frustrating time...you'll see my update on highvoltagemagazine.com soon

I'm getting back into the swing of things! My writing has taken a hit but NO MORE!!!!!!!

For now, I commit to an update here at least once a week. Maybe. Yes. Ok!


If you're still following what I'm doing thanks! If you're new...WELCOME!!!!




It's nice to be back!

and so it goes

so, i'm stressed out. really, REALLY stressed out. i've let go of a friendship which wasn't serving me...but in turn i feel guilty just because i have to let go. if that makes any sense at all. i've spent most of my paycheck over the past few days to get my mom, annd family gifts for christmas. so i now have $5 in my wallet, and under 30 in my account which a little over 100 when i got paid.

so, i'd really like it if my business took of in the new year. i've got the visual side down...graphics (are being worked on), models (it's nice to have attractive friends), and a photographer (again talented friends are a plus). now it's up to me to build my inventory as the end of january gets closer. i say the end of january because that's when Rue closes.

on the job front...well... still looking, and i can use next week (of which 5 hrs will be spent at "work") to continue that search.


i am not pleased, but the assignment given at church said "let life happen"


and so.......

deez iz funeee

negativity misson?!

this past week was OK.

TheWife and I went to a movie mid week and that was a good time.

i overdrew my account paying for the drinks after, that was not good.

here, is where it blows up:

worked Saturday which wasn't bad at all, and then went to a (now former) friends birthday party.

the party was good for a while, until he and i were jokingly arguing and he called me a cunt. no one laughed.

he claims to have had deep feelings for me for a while, again i always thought the way to get the girl is to flatter her.....
not to humiliate her in a room of strangers, and say it with a smile too!

we stayed too long and he cornered me repeatedly trying to get me to change my mind about why i won't date him. i tried to tell him that bringing this up while either of us(he normallywaits until i have a drink in me) have had a drink is not OK! i guess he took that as his cue to continually put his hhands onn me evenn after i told him 1,000 times to stop.

the next night i went over to TheWife's and we watched In the Land of Women and one of the scenes ripped my heart out and i couldn't hold it in and started to cry uncontrollably.

anytime someone tried to ask me if i was OK I'd fall apart again, so i left the room for a while and just sat in her room, she came in later and wiped my face off and told me to let go.

so i did. i wrote him last night, and sent him a txt. he wrote back, no apology at all. just blaming his drinking, and saying he understands that i need time and that i can call him when I'm ready. wtf?!

i think we have an emergency...

the boutique that sells my line is closing within the month

i've overdrawn both accounts

my go to person for graphic design and web inquries is no longer interested in graphic design and or website building

i've already spent my budget for the week

it's 5 am and i really wish i had someone to curl up with just to fall asleep.




and so it goes

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my clothing line is called D.Mae.

i hand paint tees totes and hoodies.

i originally started doing these as gifts for friends, and people started to get interested in what i do.

now a few pieces are in a boutique called Rue Couture, you can find both my line and Rue on Myspace. Rue being in my top friends.

you can view my line at the link above.

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TEES

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HOODIES

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gentlemen, if you are ordering in a ladies size to get a snug fit, you will need to go one or two sizes up from your normal size.

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heh?

my positivity mission has hit a snag! urgh! i'm in need of a bit of inspiration, and idunno where to look.

advice please.

go listen

listen to my galfriend's podcast! it's chock full o goodness i swear!!

wish list

yeah. can i have him please?!

tumblr

http://dogganghappened.tumblr.com

positivity mission

work: shitty hours....must LEAVE

job search: got a tip today! zoinks!

license:soon

mom: transplant this summer hopefully(prayers needed)

$$: see job, also savings bonds in March


love: i got my friends...great friends at that!


mood: ehhhmmm workin on it


mission: positivity (i'm following amaris' lead time to kick the bad vibes in the johnson!!!! although with winter comes the seasonal effective disorder...ugh so i gotta work out and take vitamin D to help it out)

i've got plans.....now time for action

list

got paid today +

my OTM of The Patient and I is up ++++++

not feeling great -

opened accounts +

got out of the house to fight the s.a.d +

paycheck not enough -

watching antm finale +

have to get up UBER early to shop for thanksgiving and THEN go to work- - -

researching copyrights +

photoshoot sunday +

debating sending headshots to a NY agency (i’m short, 5ft 4in) +/-/?

want

Cole Mohr you are a beautiful man

meh

i'm all crampy and sick feeling..not fun and i have an ovewhelming craving for spring rolls, steamed broccoli, and chicken....so we know what dinner will be tonight!

i literally felt like i couldn't get out of bed this morning, and thought i should cancel my appointment and just be in bed all day with the radio on, and only get out of bed to get tension tea(which is AMAZING btw).

i've been putting off reviews of albums that are piling up and by piling i mean they're just sitting there...but i did start one yesterday and was waiting for the band to get some info to me....so when i get back in it'll get done.

ohhhhhhfff i feel horrible...but i am looking forward to my session being over, maybe finding a bookseller i can walk to, getting PAPER magazine, luch, and getting back home before the 41degree weather has it's way with me!



wish me luck.

ehhhm

hai, i'm chris. i sing. sometimes asthough my voice may break if i sing too loudly and or emote a bit too much. so sometimes i do, for fun, and sometimes i don't, just to see if i can fool you. i was in france one time and sang in a crowded bar at a piano as some guy filmed me. that was fun. people seem to like my music and some confuse me with that sufjan guy.

hey, i'm sufjan. no one can pronounce my name, well some can. anywho i'm a singer songwriter and a quite guy. that shows in my music, it's delicate but my voice isn't unless it is and that tends to happen from time to time and i like it that way. i once wrote a song abt a girl who looked good in a dress, it makes girls smile. i've been told if you close your eyes while listening to my music i can sould like this chris garneau character.

i. have. hope.

it's been a long time coming, and one of the proudest moments of my life. i've never been a political person but this is the race that got me doing my research. whomever won that night would have made history. but, i am proud to say that THIS is the man who will make things happen. we're 4 years behind and i say 4 because after his first term people were frightened by change and wanted to give dubya a chance to clean up the mess that not only he but those pulling his strings made. i know now that anything is possible. that the country that i live in is ready for the good it knows itself to be capable of, and that we are behind this great man and his honesty and humility.

congrats america, you can now sit at the adults table this christmas.

o hai!

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stolrn this from ms. amaris !

katy perry song title

the fact of the matter is this....

idunno what i like, i have yet to experience either...and my last attempt at contact was comical to say the least...not by any fault of my own!

i do know this to be true....

however this goes down i will not feel guilt...because guilt comes out of fear and i do not fear who i am becoming.

i won't worry abt how others handle it because the one's who truely care for me will still be there 10 years from now.

truth

this, is progress.

lately i've been in a funk. ok, so it was more like a month's worth o funk! well! the air has cleared and today i felt good abt myself!!!

hey, it's a step.

i applied for a new job that's in Philly so i guess i'd better get used to going over the bridge! that, and i'll finally learn that holding my breathe for the duration of the trip over said bridge is NOT a good thing and i'll stop doing it! it's more than what i make now, full time, with benefits and paid sick leave and time off....occassional weekends. i'm hoping i get it and start in time enough to save for christmas and to take the next set of screenprinting classes shortly after christmas!

i spent most of the day either online updating my myspace for my line http://www.myspace.com/dmae0515

and listening to music i've been getting in the mail for review....i like to listen to everything once through and then maybe over and over again if i'm having a rough time visualizing what i'm hearing, which happens every once in a while...and then i need to take time and be careful with what i write.


ah! i feel a bit better! besides all the crampy yuckiness that's going on.