katy perry song title

the fact of the matter is this....

idunno what i like, i have yet to experience either...and my last attempt at contact was comical to say the least...not by any fault of my own!

i do know this to be true....

however this goes down i will not feel guilt...because guilt comes out of fear and i do not fear who i am becoming.

i won't worry abt how others handle it because the one's who truely care for me will still be there 10 years from now.

truth

this, is progress.

lately i've been in a funk. ok, so it was more like a month's worth o funk! well! the air has cleared and today i felt good abt myself!!!

hey, it's a step.

i applied for a new job that's in Philly so i guess i'd better get used to going over the bridge! that, and i'll finally learn that holding my breathe for the duration of the trip over said bridge is NOT a good thing and i'll stop doing it! it's more than what i make now, full time, with benefits and paid sick leave and time off....occassional weekends. i'm hoping i get it and start in time enough to save for christmas and to take the next set of screenprinting classes shortly after christmas!

i spent most of the day either online updating my myspace for my line http://www.myspace.com/dmae0515

and listening to music i've been getting in the mail for review....i like to listen to everything once through and then maybe over and over again if i'm having a rough time visualizing what i'm hearing, which happens every once in a while...and then i need to take time and be careful with what i write.


ah! i feel a bit better! besides all the crampy yuckiness that's going on.

Men. Gross.

the other night TheWife and i went to a bar after going to the advanced screening of Sex Drive( go see it...i love boy humor!)

this occured mainly because wife wanted to see the Phillies play...things were cool

random mid 30's guy starts to talk to her, then notices me, we continue to talk to him....he buys us drinks... chats for a bit tells wife hshhe hhas nice tits and minutes later tells me mine are ok too....then he asks me what her pussy tastes like...i said i didn't know and felt unbelievably uncomfortable....

a few minutes later he went to the bathroom...and we literally ran from the bar after picking up our tab...but not before adding our last two drinks to his tab.


so, a tip for you guys out there....THIS IS NOT THE WAY TO PICK UP LADIES OK!!!

idunno how men exist at all...unless they are gay at which point i'll probably love you for life.


this just makes it easier to not date. FAIL

real talk

i'm really sick of people trying to make me feel bad for the choices i make. they're mine to make, i know what's right for me!

stop freaking out because i don't want to go out after work fool...i'm tired! and yeah i hung out with thewife and didn't call you...i don't have to!! you'd slow our roll, hhinder our flirting and try and make me feel bad for showing some random guy attention...not cool! we're friends...we've been over this. i'm thankful to have you as that, i can count the guys i can rely on on one hand, getting with you would not only fuck that up, but we would probably never speak again.



...as much as i want a man....this ain't worth it! i deal with boys...where are the men?! and why is it that i can crush on a mo like nobody's business?!?!?!?!?

get by

too all the things/feelings/thoughts that I think are holding me back....

see above.



i'm getting on top of things now, because i want everything to be the way i know it can be, for these plans i've been holding onto to become the things i've made happen, and to be able to have the things i want . so, i will no longer give power to the those things, i'll give power to the things that serve me.

monday monday

sunday TheWife and I went to Fridays before going to see that movie with that guy, the gal he fancies, and that playlist of their's that I hear is infinite.........

we sat and watched the Eagles lose and the Phillies win...i don't follow sports unless they are of the Olympic nature but I watch because she loves it, and then explains things to me that i do not understand which is just a few things....

they had one of those touch screen jukeboxes filled with indie and techno treats...more so than the one at our fave Mako's on South St. in Philly, whhich was a bit o a suprise!!

the bartender was a sweetie and wife felt the need to write down my myspace url for him...i'm assuming she believes in technology enough to be able to master her blackberry in an hour after purchase but not enough to just give him my cell # ?! that or the fact that she knows me well enough that i make a better connection through written word rather than speaking to someone at any given time. i am weird man.

there was flirting,and fun times....as is the case whenever we are together and that's what I love about having such a friend.

after we went over to the theatre and watched said movie with a little buzz on and it was SOOOOO EFFING SHORT..it was as adorable and full o hijinks as I had expected...but too short and there wasn't enough mentioned about their connectionn via music which was a let down...i'll go see it again though...i am a sucker for cutsie movies.

news on theh art front: i'll have a few new post for highvoltagemagazine.com coming up and hhope to finnd more bands to bring to your attention....

as for the business: workin g on the ladies shirts which is all I have available right now...looking for inspiration every moment of everyday

<3

snap

haven't been keeping up with my post....

not a whole lot going on....

work

procrastination


that's about it!

the things that make me want to quit my job are amplified by 1,000,000 as of right now, and i don't see an end until i move on...which needs to happen SOON...theh customers have lost their cotton pickin minds!!!!
i can only argue with you about what buy one get one means so many times before i snap.


more updates soon.